User blog:Sparrowsong/I just found out something shocking...

Brief history:

My maternal grandmother, T, died of kidney cancer when I was 2 years old. I didn't really know her. Sometimes I think I can remember her, but I never know if what I remember is real or something I saw in a video or photo. That makes me frustrated - I want so badly to be able to remember my grandma, but since I was so young when she died I mostly just know her from pictures.

T had four children - my aunt E, my uncles D and P, and my mother. Or rather, I thought she had four children.

When T was a teenager, she got pregnant (by someone not my grandpa; I don't know who he was but he's most likely dead) and gave her baby up for adoption. His name was M.

M was adopted by a very nice family with a little girl. The little girl died when she was young and the parents also passed away about 25 years ago.

M's adoptive family told him he was adopted and they made sure he knew he could seek out his birth family at any time. Until right now, when he is almost 65, he didn't do that. After learning that T was dead, he contacted his remaining relatives. And that's how my mom, my aunt, and my uncles found out about him.

I don't know what to think. It's so hard to believe that I've had a half-uncle all this time that I never knew about.

There's so many questions going through my mind right now. What's M like? What does he look like? Does he look like me? Does he have black hair and blue eyes like T? Is he married? Does he have children? Grandchildren?

This is so...unreal. It can't be real. This is only supposed to be something that happens on soap operas.

Oh...my...gosh...

-Song